When I went to Kroger earlier today I suddenly realized there was a whole bunch of yogurt that I had never seen or tried before on the shelves.
“Try us, try us Anna!”, the yogurts called. “We are new and on sale~!” I caved.
$8 and a bagful of strawberry yogurt later, I trundled home excited to find a new favorite…
#1. Dannon Oikos :3
#2. Liberte Mediteranee
#3. Private Selection
Hand painted wine glasses by my awesome sister Sarah!
For Christmas, my sister Sarah hand painted these cool wine glasses for our family members with an image that reminded her of each of us. Mine has a blue Tako-san on it! 😀 😀 😀
Been feeling really down as of late. I feel like I’m just spinning my wheels with art and life in general. To be honest, I never expected my life to remain the same for so long. No wedding ring, no kids, no job with a living wage, no manga volumes, no proficiency with Japanese, no trip to Japan… Some people think that change is the worst possible thing, but it really isn’t – staying the same is.
Last night I located one of my oldest surviving drawings from 2002 and realized I have made a lot of progress since then – albeit very slow.
Slow. Everything I do is slow. A lot of trial and error, indecision, doubt, impatience, procrastination, fear, regret, frustration, anger, self pity, envy, obligation – is it any wonder I feel like I went through a major battle when I finish a drawing?
Anyways, this is what I have been working on this year to help me become a better artist and person.
- I have taken responsibility for my decisions regarding my schooling.
- I have started shedding years of layered dishonesty to myself regarding my artwork.
- I have stated what I really am and I stand behind it.
- I have accepted myself as I am, where I am.
- I rediscovered the very foundation of my art and made them my cornerstone.
- I have forgiven myself my unfinished artwork and storylines.
- I have given myself the permission and freedom to work on the story I am most interested in.
- I have swallowed my pride and allowed myself to learn from other artists.
- I am not my problems. The supplies can be at fault. Research issues before blaming self. If at fault, forgive and learn.
- I am identifying and dropping bad art habits. BAH makes me a less productive artist.
- Just because it isn’t “the right way” doesn’t mean it’s the wrong way for me. Do what works, but keep an open mind.
See Anna, you are changing. 🙂