Farewell to Twenty

This is it. It is the last day before the big day – the day I start my new series Thirty. After 10 years together with Twenty it is hard to say goodbye and write the ending of the last volume. 

Twenty was truly challenging. Most of the time I had no idea who I was, why I was, or what I was called to do. I challenged, I ceded, I gave up, I tried again, I hid, I revealed, I lied, I became honest, I ran away and I came home. I am a stubborn and rebellious woman and have made a lot of mistakes, but God is always faithful. He didn’t give up on me, and has always been there – even if I didn’t see it at the time.

The last few years of twenty have been a whirlwind as I have been getting right with God and learning to surrender to his will. 

2012 he called me to trust him. I ended up losing my car, had to change stores and had my perceived identity stripped away as I lost the finer use of my hands from carpal tunnel. 

2013 I made some quick job changes at his prompting and was able to finally earn a living wage, grew self respect and was able to finance a car. 

2014 Him and I had a heart to heart and tackled my obesity together. I lost 56 pounds and fell in love with swimming which is hilarious because I was deathly afraid of water. 

2015 was the year I got to explore the world around me in ways I didn’t think possible as I was now “normal sized.” I drove into Canada, visited Chicago, climbed the rock wall, went skiing, learned how to shoot a gun and so many other things. It was intoxicating and I wanted it to go on forever. But it was shallow because I had no one to share my adventures with. 

2016 was the year of deeper spirituality and comradry. I accepted my lot in life and got involved with scouting events, started reading the gospels and then started going to Bible study where I made new friends. I faced unemployment but God provided and I’m now working in a job that utilizes my skillset where I get to see my lovely sisters.

 I have been greatly blessed. 

No matter the fears I have of the unknown thirty, I am not going into it alone. God has been preparing me for the next series and he will be with me every step of the way. 

Cheers to thirty years!

-Anna San