Success is More than a Number

Happy Sunday Everyone!

Last week I had a “bad” weigh-in. The scale said I had gained nearly three pounds! I was like “Say wut?!” Sometimes deep down we know we “deserve” that weight gain, however I was really angry because I didn’t. I am not cheating by sneaking junk food and I’m not overeating or skipping workouts. So whats the deal? Frustrated, I brought it to the Lord in prayer and asked that the scale stay the same. When I got home from church, the scale changed it’s mind. The readout declared that there wasn’t a weight gain – and that I had stayed exactly the same. Thank you Lord!

I tried to think of anything that could possibly stall my weight loss and attempted to amend it. Not enough rest? Get in bed sooner. Bound up system? Detox drinks every morning. Could this not-quite-precisely measured 2 tbsps of lite dressing be a culprit? Make sure not to use all of it. Despite this rather anal mentality, I was more relaxed and kept my personal achievements in mind….

Recent Successes:

  • I can wrap a regular towel around myself – instead of needing a bath sheet
  • Noticeably slimmer thighs and ankles
  • Slid a size 6 ring on my left ring finger (whoa)
  • Less back fat
  • Losing inches all over
  • Surprised my swim instructor with how much my swimming has improved 😀
  • My replacement clothes are getting loose and more items are ending up in the donation bag 🙂
  • Getting more and more compliments on my appearance
  • People are asking for my secret weight loss technique (lol!)
  • An all around feeling of well being

We can’t rely on the scale to advise us of success because that number is just one small piece of a much bigger story. 🙂

This week I had a 2 pound loss bringing me to a total of 45 pounds lost since 1-1-2014. This means I have officially passed my 20% weight loss goal! 😀 😀 😀 Next step is to bring my BMI out of the obese category – which I’m really close to; then I’ll be working toward my 30%. 🙂

Thanks for reading!

-AnnaSan

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Perseverance

After the excitement of the holidays I’ve been feeling kinda bummed. Have new goals and resolutions I’m working on, which are good – but they are challenging and will take time to see progress; so very little motivation there. 😦 I also haven’t been able to hang out with my friends due to my work schedule which makes me feel disconnected. 😦 😦 And to top that off I’m already having to work overtime to meet January’s quota. 😦 😦 😦 Everything feels harder this month and to be honest, I really don’t want to do anything. Good thing I don’t rely on my feelings, huh? No matter what they say I am still at the gym four days a week.

Lets face it – weight loss is a bumpy ride and we all experience challenges along the way. My weight loss journey definitely hasn’t been an easy one and I hope that my previous posts haven’t alluded to such, because it couldn’t be further from the truth.

Early on I accepted several invitations to pity parties or would rationalize having “just one” and eat things that I  knew I shouldn’t. For example in September I ate five donuts in one week. FIVE. No, I didn’t gain weight from it (because I had already started changing my diet and exercise plan) but I lost some respect for myself. Instead of being reactive I became proactive. I stepped back and asked, “Why am I working against myself?” I spent quite awhile soul searching and in prayer. It came to the front that my inner child didn’t want to give up anything. I wanted to achieve weight loss and eat the donuts too.

For some, the “everything in moderation” mindset works well. As a sugar and food addict with a long history of unsuccessful weight loss attempts, I knew that it didn’t work for me. Armed with this new self-awareness, I refocused on what I wanted and why I wanted it, committed it to prayer and took steps to amend my habits.

First I asked my brother to get rid of the rest of the dozen donuts that I had been grazing on as I was too weak to resist them, then I stopped eating donuts at the weekly Coffee & Donuts after church but would still go for the coffee and the socializing. It was through this situation that I finally realized and accepted that I had to make a commitment to a complete lifestyle change.

After a few weeks of cutting the sweets, I experienced my first triumph over my sugar addiction when I threw away that donut on Halloween. It was a glorious and freeing feeling. It was then that I knew that I was mentally ready to take my weight loss to the next level by starting the 1,200 calorie diet …which I am still on today. 🙂

Don’t let the failures of today dictate your tomorrow. 

If you mess up, it’s okay. Take time to find out why, pray about it and make a commitment. Get right back on the bandwagon. I know you can do it. 🙂

Thanks for reading!

-AnnaSan

Learning to Fly

For those of you who are visiting for the first time, I started my weight loss journey on January 1st 2014 and lost 11lbs in two months. My weight loss stalled as my activity level went down and ended up gaining back 7lbs over 4 months as I started believing the lie that I couldn’t change. After taking time to reflect on whats most important to me, I refocused and shed those regained pounds in August and recommitted on September 1st, this time with God as my partner. I got a gym membership, boosted my activity level from zero, and slowly changed my eating habits. Now I’m swimming three days a week and am maintaining a 1200 calorie diet. I have lost 22lbs since I recommitted and God has been with me every step of the way.

Angel Wing Necklace

Angel Wing Necklace: A gift from my sister. 🙂

Since the beginning of this year I have completed three 6 week sessions of swimming classes and transitioned into private lessons so I could learn the Butterfly stroke. It’s also known as Fly because of how fast you “fly” across the pool.

Butterfly has been a challenge to learn and requires a great deal of strength – something that I currently don’t have much of. My pulls are weak, I breathe too often and my dolphin kick could be more fluid, but I see improvement every time I swim which keeps me wanting to try. 🙂 A recent cause for excitement was when I finally felt the “snap” in my butterfly stroke. I was stoked! 😀

Last week my instructor had me do a stamina building exercise called ladders which is going to help with all my strokes. Although it wasn’t pretty, I completed it having swum over 700 yards. Compared to when I first started swimming, I really am flying!

Big Girls Do Cry

This journey has been a massively emotional process. With every benchmark I am seeing more and more changes in myself which is exciting yet really scary all at the same time. I marvel at my slim wrists then have to cover them up in discomfort. The questions lurks in the back of my mind, “Who is this person? Do I know her?” I’ve been heavy for so long it’s ingrained in my psyche that I’m a fat sedentary woman, but the figure in the mirror is stating otherwise.

My recent tearful moment was when I went to the store to find new jeans. I tried on an 18, nope too big. I tried on a 16, ehh too baggy. Then I tried on the 14 misses and it fit. I felt the past six years roll away as I looked in the mirror and I cried. I am truly becoming a new creation and I ask for God’s continued blessing on my efforts to transform my life.

Thanks for reading!

-Anna San